in my last couple of posts, i've signed off with the phrase "fighting the fight". heres why.
underneath the slave beats the heart of a gentleman, a no nonsense, no bullshitting person, who would take the shirt off his back if someone else needed it. i have my own views on right and wrong, and how i see the world. often it can bring arguments and heated discussions, especially if its something i am passionate about or if someone i deeply care about is in trouble. in the distant past it has led to physical altercations too.
you might be asking whats brought all this about? well, the week thats just gone has been a good one, Mistress and I are going great guns, even when someone had the audacity to use some of Mistresses pictures as their own on a well known fetish community site. i got annoyed, and it took Mistress a while to calm me down as i went from zero to raging at the still invisible imposter. i cannot help this, even though Mistress is an amazingly tactful and independent woman, i feel very protective over Her and what is Hers. i suppose thats what being in love is all about.
on a minor point, Mistress, Miss Beth, myself and Miss Beths boy went to Kage at the weekend. it was a great event, however, on the site i mentioned earlier i left a discussion on there about dress codes etc. people were wandering about the club in jeans and street clothes etc, which to be honest i dont think fits in that type of environment. 99% of the comments were well balanced and thought out, bringing both sides of the argument into perspective. except one, which actually got my hackles up.
the person who wrote it used the phrase "stop policing peoples expressions. just stop". straight away i had to hold myself back from telling him where to go. the thread had been closed by the group owner, before i had chance to reply, so i sent a message to him, politely putting my reasons for the thread across. as i said, he used the phrase above, and asked him was he not doing the same to me as what he thought i was doing by writing the discussion. as yet i have not recieved a reply, to be honest i wont be surprised if i dont get one back.
bottom line is this. i'm an ex soldier. fighting is something that sadly comes naturally to me, i'm still paying thed consequences for past operational tours (see other posts). i will fight for what i belive is right, and will defend my right to say it, and defend people who i think are being unfairly picked on.
fighting the fight (as always)
j.
Monday, 1 October 2012
Monday, 17 September 2012
hypnosis for dummies
today has been a real eye opener... well, sort of. Mistress and I have been discussing a little experiment She'd thought up for when She placed me into a trance, whereby i literally become a waxwork mannequin on command. suffice to say Mistress had some fun this morning!
as usual Mistress was teasing me, rubbing Her fingers over my head, basically getting me into the zone, then bam... She uttered those immortal words and i was under. i cant remember what She said to me while i was entranced, however She has explained that She had placed a couple of deepeners on me, to make me relax completely, and also implanted the new trigger, to turn me into Her personal mannequin, to do with as She pleases.
so onto the acid test. Mistress brought me out of my trance, and after a couple of minutes teasing and "will i won't i" She said the trigger words. up until She brought me out of it, i really have no memory of what happened apart from a couple of vivid flashbacks of me doing "i'm a little teapot". from what Mistress has told me, She was very pleased with the speed i went under, given recent events in my life (see previous blog posts) and the way i just stood there, glazed, blank, in other words her personal mindless puppet.
i think this sounds like Mistress is having fun. total control at its finest.
fighting the fight, and for once gaining ground
slave J
as usual Mistress was teasing me, rubbing Her fingers over my head, basically getting me into the zone, then bam... She uttered those immortal words and i was under. i cant remember what She said to me while i was entranced, however She has explained that She had placed a couple of deepeners on me, to make me relax completely, and also implanted the new trigger, to turn me into Her personal mannequin, to do with as She pleases.
so onto the acid test. Mistress brought me out of my trance, and after a couple of minutes teasing and "will i won't i" She said the trigger words. up until She brought me out of it, i really have no memory of what happened apart from a couple of vivid flashbacks of me doing "i'm a little teapot". from what Mistress has told me, She was very pleased with the speed i went under, given recent events in my life (see previous blog posts) and the way i just stood there, glazed, blank, in other words her personal mindless puppet.
i think this sounds like Mistress is having fun. total control at its finest.
fighting the fight, and for once gaining ground
slave J
what happens when....
well, the last few weeks theres been trouble brewing. yet again i cannot thank Mistress enough for Her wisdom, patience, guidance and constant reassurance after yet another, this time major panic attack.
it all started on friday, Mistress, Miss Beth and I were at Mistresses chambers, when i just had to leave the room. i ended up in a quivering blubbering heap on the floor in the kitchen, which is amazing as you couldnt even swing a cat in there. after a few minutes to let me simmer, Mistress came in, and that was it. the floodgates opened.
when i do have a panic attack, my body and mind goes into overdrive. every one of my worst fears come into my head, and i think stupid irrational things, from people not caring right up to wanting to end my life. luckily, Mistress could see straight away how bad this one was and was kneeling next to me, letting me just hold on to Her in between sobs and runny noses. i honestly cant remember what caused it or why it happened, i can only assume it was just because i've been so run down recently, and its just came to a fore.
anyway, the cure has been very simple. after everyone had left, i was lying on Mistresses Bondage table trying to gather my thoughts. Mistress laid with me, well, more on top of me, and the next thing i knew, She had put me into a trance. (as you will see from previous blog posts, She has placed many previous hypnotic suggestions, and apparently i go into a trance without any drama!) from what She told me, She removed all the unhappiness and stress and more or less commanded my subconcious to cheer up. apart from a few minor wobbles, its worked! i feel a lot brighter now, but even so, i KNOW that no matter what happens, i will have a panic attack again. its just a matter of when, and what i can do to combat it.
fighting the fight...
Slave J
it all started on friday, Mistress, Miss Beth and I were at Mistresses chambers, when i just had to leave the room. i ended up in a quivering blubbering heap on the floor in the kitchen, which is amazing as you couldnt even swing a cat in there. after a few minutes to let me simmer, Mistress came in, and that was it. the floodgates opened.
when i do have a panic attack, my body and mind goes into overdrive. every one of my worst fears come into my head, and i think stupid irrational things, from people not caring right up to wanting to end my life. luckily, Mistress could see straight away how bad this one was and was kneeling next to me, letting me just hold on to Her in between sobs and runny noses. i honestly cant remember what caused it or why it happened, i can only assume it was just because i've been so run down recently, and its just came to a fore.
anyway, the cure has been very simple. after everyone had left, i was lying on Mistresses Bondage table trying to gather my thoughts. Mistress laid with me, well, more on top of me, and the next thing i knew, She had put me into a trance. (as you will see from previous blog posts, She has placed many previous hypnotic suggestions, and apparently i go into a trance without any drama!) from what She told me, She removed all the unhappiness and stress and more or less commanded my subconcious to cheer up. apart from a few minor wobbles, its worked! i feel a lot brighter now, but even so, i KNOW that no matter what happens, i will have a panic attack again. its just a matter of when, and what i can do to combat it.
fighting the fight...
Slave J
Monday, 3 September 2012
slave camps, photography and life itself
hi everyone, well, its been ages since i blogged (yet again), but for both Mistress and I its been a hectic month. I've finally settled in with Mistress and Her family, and the pace of life is often frenetic, but enjoyable at the same time. Mistress has been busy organising Her new project, a slave camp, where both Herself and Her partner in crime Miss Beth recieve slaves for a morning or afternoon sessions of manual labour, and lots of fun, teasing, and general humiliation of slaves who come to take part. The inaugural slave camp was a roaring success, and will now be held on the last friday of every month.
on a more personal note, i've been busy myself. i have been a hobby photographer with my trusty iPhone for some time, and after sharing pictures on twitter and facebook, people told me i shoudl really try and push more into it. so, armed with my phone i took more pictures, downloaded a photo enhancing suite called.... GIMP (oh the irony!), as i refuse to fork out over £700 for flipping photoshop! and then away i went. i also joined an american website, which i've put the link below. The pictures i have on that profile are all for sale, at reasonable prices, so if you like my work then please please make a purchase of a limited edition picture. i say limited edition, because once one is bought it will be taken off the site and not used again. on saturday just past, i was surprised by a package from the postman, and it was a new digital camera, purchased as a gift by my absolutely gorgeous generous Mistress. We went out on sunday and road tested it, and i got some amazing shots, which i have posted on here.
this is the link to my profile on the photo site.
http://fineartamerica.com/profiles/11-james-smith.html
every image bought is framed, posted and handled by the website owners, so its very high quality.
personal life is going well. Mistress and i met up with Miss Beth and Her boy last week at Kage club, in which Mistress and Miss Beth bought new hitty toys and then proceeded to test them on both me and Miss Beth's boy, even at one point forming a tag team and swapping to hit each others respective slave! after that we retired into the clubs pool for a relaxing dip, and then had to leave to come home.
all in all, life is going really well at the minute. the art site is going well, my relationship with Mistress is going from strength to strength, and life is continually being nice to me for a change!
here are some of the new images from my new camera, which are now on the website.
on a more personal note, i've been busy myself. i have been a hobby photographer with my trusty iPhone for some time, and after sharing pictures on twitter and facebook, people told me i shoudl really try and push more into it. so, armed with my phone i took more pictures, downloaded a photo enhancing suite called.... GIMP (oh the irony!), as i refuse to fork out over £700 for flipping photoshop! and then away i went. i also joined an american website, which i've put the link below. The pictures i have on that profile are all for sale, at reasonable prices, so if you like my work then please please make a purchase of a limited edition picture. i say limited edition, because once one is bought it will be taken off the site and not used again. on saturday just past, i was surprised by a package from the postman, and it was a new digital camera, purchased as a gift by my absolutely gorgeous generous Mistress. We went out on sunday and road tested it, and i got some amazing shots, which i have posted on here.
this is the link to my profile on the photo site.
http://fineartamerica.com/profiles/11-james-smith.html
every image bought is framed, posted and handled by the website owners, so its very high quality.
personal life is going well. Mistress and i met up with Miss Beth and Her boy last week at Kage club, in which Mistress and Miss Beth bought new hitty toys and then proceeded to test them on both me and Miss Beth's boy, even at one point forming a tag team and swapping to hit each others respective slave! after that we retired into the clubs pool for a relaxing dip, and then had to leave to come home.
all in all, life is going really well at the minute. the art site is going well, my relationship with Mistress is going from strength to strength, and life is continually being nice to me for a change!
here are some of the new images from my new camera, which are now on the website.
Friday, 3 August 2012
fresh start, new beginnings.
well, so much has happened since my last post. ive ben spending the last couple of weeks packing up my flat, ready for a new start, as Mistress has invited me to live with Her. so from tomorrow, i will be packed up and waiting for Mistress to arrive with a van, and then its off to sunny stockport forever.
to be honest, this has been a long time coming. ive been stagnating here since 2008, living like a hermit, and not really going out. however, Mistress has brought out the old me from my shell, the happy go lucky cheeky little sod i am. i'm really happy about this, albeit a little nervous, as i'm a bit of a OCD freak about change (frankly it makes me anxious, but it really is for the best!)
Mistress and i are getting on better now after my SNAFU, and our love is getting to be such a strong bond. i never actually thought i'd be this deeply in love again, after being hurt so much by certain people. my family are behind me 100% in this as well, which makes a huge bonus, and they are looking forward to meeting Mistress as well.
the other side of me, slave j, is starting to come into his own as well. no more thinking about his needs, more of what he can do for his Mistress, to make Her happy. i'm just a really happy bunny now, relaxed and confident, even if the forthcvoming move is a tad scary!!
peace out!
to be honest, this has been a long time coming. ive been stagnating here since 2008, living like a hermit, and not really going out. however, Mistress has brought out the old me from my shell, the happy go lucky cheeky little sod i am. i'm really happy about this, albeit a little nervous, as i'm a bit of a OCD freak about change (frankly it makes me anxious, but it really is for the best!)
Mistress and i are getting on better now after my SNAFU, and our love is getting to be such a strong bond. i never actually thought i'd be this deeply in love again, after being hurt so much by certain people. my family are behind me 100% in this as well, which makes a huge bonus, and they are looking forward to meeting Mistress as well.
the other side of me, slave j, is starting to come into his own as well. no more thinking about his needs, more of what he can do for his Mistress, to make Her happy. i'm just a really happy bunny now, relaxed and confident, even if the forthcvoming move is a tad scary!!
peace out!
Tuesday, 26 June 2012
really got to blog more often!
i cant believe its over a month since i posted. so much has happened, mostly good, some bad, but i'm not dwelling on that. Mistress and i have been together for 7 months now, and going from strength to strength. if You are a reader of Her blog, You will find a lot of whats happened between us on there.
over the last few weeks, i've been busy myself. i moved into a temprorary flat and on the same day Mistress came to visit for the weekend. we had a lot of fun just re aquainting ourselves with each other, and the day after my birthday we travelled to Her home for a week long stay. proof our relationship is getting stronger all the time!
all too soon though, i had to return home, as i was going away for a week. that week passed quickly, it was a therapy centre for ex servicemen with mental health problems. thankfully it wasnt TOO emotional, i relaxed with fishing, just pulling trout out of the river doon was relaxing.
i arrived back with Mistress on sunday. and since then my training has gone up a gear. the hypnosis She is using on me works a treat, and She has found a way to combine our love of hypnosis with a love of latex, something which Mistress really enjoys seeing me in. Yesterday for example, i was wearing my thigh length rubber shorts, with the zip in front, Mistress, really had a ball placing me in a trance and placing 2 new triggers in my subconcious, which drive me wild with desire and further under her control. today, after a bath and a shave (face and crotch) i dressed in my rubber sheath pants, which Mistress had not seen me in until today....and i think She is pleased with them!
at this moment in time, i am sat at Mistresses feet writing this, with a well earned cigarette and coffee. we've just spent the last 40 minutes on a bed with me being given the honour and privildge to worship Mistresses sexy body from head to toe. i was in heaven when i was worshipping and licking her amazing bottom, and playing with her gorgeously wet pussy and clit. Her orgasms give me a thrill, as i revel in Her writhing and moaning in pure ecstasy. i am glad i can please Her in that way, as i'm in chastity still, although my (Her) cock is not locked up as of yet.
the future is looking bright. i'll be moving to Her home very soon, for which i cant wait, i'll be sad to go home at the weekend, but i know i'll be back again soon. i've attached a couple of pictures hopefully which will show the happiness i have found.
until later,
slave j
over the last few weeks, i've been busy myself. i moved into a temprorary flat and on the same day Mistress came to visit for the weekend. we had a lot of fun just re aquainting ourselves with each other, and the day after my birthday we travelled to Her home for a week long stay. proof our relationship is getting stronger all the time!
all too soon though, i had to return home, as i was going away for a week. that week passed quickly, it was a therapy centre for ex servicemen with mental health problems. thankfully it wasnt TOO emotional, i relaxed with fishing, just pulling trout out of the river doon was relaxing.
i arrived back with Mistress on sunday. and since then my training has gone up a gear. the hypnosis She is using on me works a treat, and She has found a way to combine our love of hypnosis with a love of latex, something which Mistress really enjoys seeing me in. Yesterday for example, i was wearing my thigh length rubber shorts, with the zip in front, Mistress, really had a ball placing me in a trance and placing 2 new triggers in my subconcious, which drive me wild with desire and further under her control. today, after a bath and a shave (face and crotch) i dressed in my rubber sheath pants, which Mistress had not seen me in until today....and i think She is pleased with them!
at this moment in time, i am sat at Mistresses feet writing this, with a well earned cigarette and coffee. we've just spent the last 40 minutes on a bed with me being given the honour and privildge to worship Mistresses sexy body from head to toe. i was in heaven when i was worshipping and licking her amazing bottom, and playing with her gorgeously wet pussy and clit. Her orgasms give me a thrill, as i revel in Her writhing and moaning in pure ecstasy. i am glad i can please Her in that way, as i'm in chastity still, although my (Her) cock is not locked up as of yet.
the future is looking bright. i'll be moving to Her home very soon, for which i cant wait, i'll be sad to go home at the weekend, but i know i'll be back again soon. i've attached a couple of pictures hopefully which will show the happiness i have found.
until later,
Thursday, 10 May 2012
wow... just wow
well, its the end of an amazing week. on the spur of the moment, i sent a text to Mistress asking if i could come down to Her home, and She readily agreed, so once the council had inspected my flat (shoddy building work, but felt awkward when they wanted to go into my wardrobes, seeing as i had fetish gear hanging up!) but as soon as they were finished, so was i.
once i arrived, i just felt a wave of relief, knowing i'd be there for a while at Mistresses request. the first night was just magical, spending time getting re-aquainted with each other, relaxing and just being happy. the next day, i helped Her with Her shopping, and we had a day in town with Her mum, which was great.
later on in the evening, Mistress had decided now was the time to try hypnosis. now this was something i had never ever attempted before, so i was a little nervous. however, within the first time of relaxing, i was put under a trance, which was going well until the sodding phone rang! but, once the call was finished with, Mistress had no problem placing me back under, and basicallyopened my mind to Her, in which She placed a post hypnotic suggestion or 3 (one to put me back into a deep sleep, one purely for Her amusement... and mine) and then we went home.
on the friday, Mistress and i went to Her work place, and She took great delight in playing with the trigger words, watching me writhe and buck under her spell! we had a quiet day, but it was nice to just spend time with each other.
saturday and this was the night, we went to the cottage fetish party, a great venue with friendly people, which is invite only. we dressed, we ate, we played, and the party was really getting started as we left at midnight, but again it was a great night just to spend time with Her.
on sunday we just relaxed, waiting for monday, a day i'd spend with Mistress and Her family, as we'd planned to go out for the day, to blackpool. however, i did surprise Mistress by proposing to Her! monday came and we were up early, and in blackpool for 10 am, and had a great time, not even the rain spoiled it!
on the tuesday, Mistress wanted to put on a cam show with us both starring in it, however, sadly no-one wanted to watch (thier loss!) and also with that, She placed me into a trance, speaking with my subconcious mind, and again reinforcing the post hypno suggestions. on the evening we went and visited Miss Beth, and She was amazed and highly amused when Mistress made me think that everything i looked at was hilarious!
sadly though wednesday came all too soon. i ended up leaviing with tears in my eyes, and am now home, although i am making plans to get back there as soon as possible!
once i arrived, i just felt a wave of relief, knowing i'd be there for a while at Mistresses request. the first night was just magical, spending time getting re-aquainted with each other, relaxing and just being happy. the next day, i helped Her with Her shopping, and we had a day in town with Her mum, which was great.
later on in the evening, Mistress had decided now was the time to try hypnosis. now this was something i had never ever attempted before, so i was a little nervous. however, within the first time of relaxing, i was put under a trance, which was going well until the sodding phone rang! but, once the call was finished with, Mistress had no problem placing me back under, and basicallyopened my mind to Her, in which She placed a post hypnotic suggestion or 3 (one to put me back into a deep sleep, one purely for Her amusement... and mine) and then we went home.
on the friday, Mistress and i went to Her work place, and She took great delight in playing with the trigger words, watching me writhe and buck under her spell! we had a quiet day, but it was nice to just spend time with each other.
saturday and this was the night, we went to the cottage fetish party, a great venue with friendly people, which is invite only. we dressed, we ate, we played, and the party was really getting started as we left at midnight, but again it was a great night just to spend time with Her.
on sunday we just relaxed, waiting for monday, a day i'd spend with Mistress and Her family, as we'd planned to go out for the day, to blackpool. however, i did surprise Mistress by proposing to Her! monday came and we were up early, and in blackpool for 10 am, and had a great time, not even the rain spoiled it!
on the tuesday, Mistress wanted to put on a cam show with us both starring in it, however, sadly no-one wanted to watch (thier loss!) and also with that, She placed me into a trance, speaking with my subconcious mind, and again reinforcing the post hypno suggestions. on the evening we went and visited Miss Beth, and She was amazed and highly amused when Mistress made me think that everything i looked at was hilarious!
sadly though wednesday came all too soon. i ended up leaviing with tears in my eyes, and am now home, although i am making plans to get back there as soon as possible!
Tuesday, 17 April 2012
And so to Stockport
Well the recovery is slow painful but going ok. I'm sat writing this on my phone in the luxury of first class on the train down to Stockport ( just have to spoil yourself sometimes).
I'm reflecting on the weekend just gone, Mistress came and stayed at mine, and spending time with Her just reinforced the bond between us. We met a friend of mine another Domme on Friday, and it was a great time drinking rose and just chilling. Saturday was spent having quality time together at Edinburgh zoo, just mixing with the throng and having a laugh, never knew there were so many bloody animal related jokes(I'm not lion lmao) but Sunday came all too soon and as much as I wanted to go with Mistress I had to get a sick note from the doctors to hand in at work so it's now Tuesday and I'm on my way. I just can't wait to be there
Saturday, 7 April 2012
Fighting for life
I am writing this not as J but as james. Right now as it has been for the last 10 years my mind is in overdrive, and I'm currently fighting my emotions.
I suffer from a modern curse, which blights so many people of my age who've served in the armed forces, which is post traumatic stress disorder, a condition which at
times can be really debilitating. All rational thought can go out the window, and life can just seem like a bag of shite, but it's nothing new to me. The reason I'm feeling as low this time is a mystery. It just hit me like a train, so much so I've been sent home from work. The recurring nightmares and flashbacks are always the same one, watching mass graves being dug up in Bosnia a sight no person should ever have witnessed.
At least this time I have some positives. I've forewarned my family do at least If I go off on a rant they will know that it's not me saying this it's the demon inside of me, and the same gies with Miss Tilly who has actually been a bit of a calming influence just by talking to me. I thought after the last 8 or 9 months the old me was gradually returning, my self confidence was back, the happiness I feel at being owned, which to me is probably why I feel so low.
Tuesday, 27 March 2012
end of an amazing weekend!
Well it Tuesday morning I'm sat with my now Mistress (I've gone from being under consideration to being owned! What an absolutely brilliant feeling!) and just sat reflecting on what's happened over the past 3 days.
I arrived on Saturday afternoon and straight away went to the flat where mistress had me strip and proceeded to tease my swollen cock and balls with her gorgeous feet... It took all my strength and effort not to cum!!! The rest of the day passed in a blur, although the food we had in the kro bar was nice, apart from the waiter forgetting to being our second drinks order!
Sunday came with another beautiful sunny morning, and Mistress arriving as we were waiting for her good friend Miss Beth and her boy, as we were going to a fetish event, namely the Kage in virus I was little nervous about meeting them, an didn't want to let Mistress Down, but as Miss Beth stepped
Through the door, my nerves kind of evaporated as She disarmed me with Her charm! After we finished packing for the event we headed off into
The Sunday sunshine and off to what was an amazing day.....
As we arrived I helped Mistress onto her runner legging s and corset and all I can say is Wow she looked stunning! Once Mistress was ready I changed I to my rubber shorts T shirt and thigh high boots and the tutu that mistress ha bought for me. I was also happy to wear the collar She placed around my neck a thick metal and leather one... We had a walk round looking at the pools sauna and play area before we headed upstairs for a cold drink.
After a while Mistress decided to test out then2 new toys She had bought, a carbon cane an a carpet beater type thingy, and string me up to the cross. I felt one stroke of the flogger and I was in heaven, but I actually didn't realise that Miss Beth was remain up with Mistress until I heard her evil laugh! I lost all track of time as I went into subspace the pain of here blows only increasing my devotion and dreamlike state.... As I was let down I ha to be supported a little by Mistress, as I didn't know which was more rubbery, my outfit or my legs! After a few minutes to get my senses and Mistress telling me how proud She was of me, it was outside for a quick smoke then a dip
In the pool. Sadly Miss Beth and her boy had to leave to go home but it was a friendly farewell and I was really glad to have met them!
After a dip, Mistress and I said our farewells and headed back ourselves, we talked on the way back about what had happened, and agreed that the experience was a great positive.
Monday came around, and we spent a lot of time travelling, but I was just glad to be with Mistress! In the evening as I Pampered Mistresses feet, she changed her profile to say She was my owner, which came as a compete shock to me, I was so happy I was about to cry! As I pampered Her Mistress also decided to torture or should I say tease me to the edge quite a few times... And ten it happened... This morning. Sadly I had to head home. But Mistress still wanted Her fun and after stripping me naked and laying me on her bench, she brought me to the edge over and over until I had 2 ruined orgasms within 5 minutes..... But thankfully Mistress brought Herself to climax so it was win win for Her lol.. I'm writing this on the train home, feeling g empty, hollow like part of me is missing. I really want, no need to be at her feet...... Thank You Mistress for an outstanding weekend and thank You to Miss Beth for offering both her and Her boy's friendship...
Thursday, 15 March 2012
It's getting closer
Not long now. Next week I'll be where I should be, at miss Tilly's feet, for which I can't wait. It seems so long ago I was last there!
Hopefully I can carry on where I left off and learn more from her and be exactly what she wants me to be
Friday, 9 March 2012
feeling good
i've just left a skype call with Miss Tilly, and feel amazing. the buzzing, heady feel of someone on the edge of subspace..... just scintilating.
i'm currently sat with one of my butt plugs teasing my hole, rubbing against my prostate, and keeping me horny and frustrated (just how Miss likes me.... lol) and i'm writing this now before i crack on with window cleaning and my chores as i've a day off work today.
the call itself was brilliant. Miss as always looked radiant, sat on her chair like a queen that She is. almost as soon as we started talking, Miss had me strip naked, and i tied my balls and pegged my nipples for Her. i then had to edge, 5 times, before She asked me to stop, and then slap my balls. the weird thing is, i was caught in my mind, i knew it would hurt, but i had to obey. so the first few slaps were little ones, not that i wanted them to be, i wanted to take pain for Miss and be thankful for it, then i slapped a little too hard and ended up feeling sick!
after a minutes rest or so, Miss showed me a little incentive, a pair of rubber leggings She had bought, saying if i came down as i promised, She might wear them to the kage club if i was a good boy.. i just know She will look stunning in them! i was then instructed to plug myself and then edge again, another 4 times but it felt more intense!
after i had finished, Miss had me put my clothes back on, to add to more frustration, and happiness for Her. i love Miss with all my heart, and i'd do anything for her. cant wait to be with her again!
i'm currently sat with one of my butt plugs teasing my hole, rubbing against my prostate, and keeping me horny and frustrated (just how Miss likes me.... lol) and i'm writing this now before i crack on with window cleaning and my chores as i've a day off work today.
the call itself was brilliant. Miss as always looked radiant, sat on her chair like a queen that She is. almost as soon as we started talking, Miss had me strip naked, and i tied my balls and pegged my nipples for Her. i then had to edge, 5 times, before She asked me to stop, and then slap my balls. the weird thing is, i was caught in my mind, i knew it would hurt, but i had to obey. so the first few slaps were little ones, not that i wanted them to be, i wanted to take pain for Miss and be thankful for it, then i slapped a little too hard and ended up feeling sick!
after a minutes rest or so, Miss showed me a little incentive, a pair of rubber leggings She had bought, saying if i came down as i promised, She might wear them to the kage club if i was a good boy.. i just know She will look stunning in them! i was then instructed to plug myself and then edge again, another 4 times but it felt more intense!
after i had finished, Miss had me put my clothes back on, to add to more frustration, and happiness for Her. i love Miss with all my heart, and i'd do anything for her. cant wait to be with her again!
Sunday, 4 March 2012
catching up with things
ive not wrote on here for ages, so much has happened, so little time, plus ive been spending time trying to stop my fish from eating the fry they give birth to!
i'm working my chaste nuts off at the minute, although as much as i love my job, i know its not permanent, as i'll be joining Miss Tilly sometime in the future as her slave/life partner. the relationship between us is continuing at a great pace, and i cant wait to be with Her again. She set me a task a couple of weeks ago, which was pretty tortuous for me, even though i craved to release for her.
i was ordered to cum at least 6 times over a 24 hour period, and to provide physical evidence of it once it had been done. the first 3 times were good, i produced a decent amount of cum, but the 4th and 5th time was when i started having problems, it was getting harder to cum, and my (or rather Miss tilly's) cock was now getting sore. in the end i had to text Miss and let her know i just could not ejaculate the 6th time, no matter how hard or how long i tried. i was expecting Miss to be dissapointed, upset that i couldnt obey her wishes, but She told me (i imagine with a smile on her beautiful face) that She knew how hard it would be, and not to worry, i'd pleased Her and done everything She had asked of me.
i text Miss every day from the minute i wake up until i go to bed. to be honest, i've fell hook line and sinker for Her. not just because She owns me in body mind and soul, but also as people we connect on so many different levels, its like a dream come true. plus as an added bonus, Miss has taken on another slave and took great lengths to reassure me that it wont change the dynamic we have.
life is looking great at the minute, i am looking forward to the end of march where i will be at Miss Tilly's feet again where i truly belong. i am in my element, i revel in my complete submission to Her, and devote myself to Her and Her teaching. i'm far from being a perfect slave, and doubtless i have still lots to learn, but its a voyage of discovery for the both of us, be it hand in hand, or collared and leashed. i'm excited about it, and just know i'm in safe hands
i'm working my chaste nuts off at the minute, although as much as i love my job, i know its not permanent, as i'll be joining Miss Tilly sometime in the future as her slave/life partner. the relationship between us is continuing at a great pace, and i cant wait to be with Her again. She set me a task a couple of weeks ago, which was pretty tortuous for me, even though i craved to release for her.
i was ordered to cum at least 6 times over a 24 hour period, and to provide physical evidence of it once it had been done. the first 3 times were good, i produced a decent amount of cum, but the 4th and 5th time was when i started having problems, it was getting harder to cum, and my (or rather Miss tilly's) cock was now getting sore. in the end i had to text Miss and let her know i just could not ejaculate the 6th time, no matter how hard or how long i tried. i was expecting Miss to be dissapointed, upset that i couldnt obey her wishes, but She told me (i imagine with a smile on her beautiful face) that She knew how hard it would be, and not to worry, i'd pleased Her and done everything She had asked of me.
i text Miss every day from the minute i wake up until i go to bed. to be honest, i've fell hook line and sinker for Her. not just because She owns me in body mind and soul, but also as people we connect on so many different levels, its like a dream come true. plus as an added bonus, Miss has taken on another slave and took great lengths to reassure me that it wont change the dynamic we have.
life is looking great at the minute, i am looking forward to the end of march where i will be at Miss Tilly's feet again where i truly belong. i am in my element, i revel in my complete submission to Her, and devote myself to Her and Her teaching. i'm far from being a perfect slave, and doubtless i have still lots to learn, but its a voyage of discovery for the both of us, be it hand in hand, or collared and leashed. i'm excited about it, and just know i'm in safe hands
Tuesday, 14 February 2012
old address new posts
wow, i've not wrote on this blog for ages, and it seems that my posts have disappeared. however, sod the past, i'm looking to the future.
i've met and become both addicted and devoted to an amazing Domme. Miss Tilly. we met last weekend, for a magical experience, one which left me needing more, never mind wanting more. the chemistry, the laughs, the time we spent together was just simply amazing, and i cannot imagine now what my life would be like without Her in it.
its valentines day today, and Miss gave me a very special present. when i was there, i gave her a beautiful rubber corset as a present, and until today i'd not seen Her in it. however, She allowed me on Skype to see Her heavenly Body in all its rubber glory.. i was dumbstruck!
thank You Miss for allowing me to glimpse that vision of heaven xxx
i've met and become both addicted and devoted to an amazing Domme. Miss Tilly. we met last weekend, for a magical experience, one which left me needing more, never mind wanting more. the chemistry, the laughs, the time we spent together was just simply amazing, and i cannot imagine now what my life would be like without Her in it.
its valentines day today, and Miss gave me a very special present. when i was there, i gave her a beautiful rubber corset as a present, and until today i'd not seen Her in it. however, She allowed me on Skype to see Her heavenly Body in all its rubber glory.. i was dumbstruck!
thank You Miss for allowing me to glimpse that vision of heaven xxx
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