today has been a real eye opener... well, sort of. Mistress and I have been discussing a little experiment She'd thought up for when She placed me into a trance, whereby i literally become a waxwork mannequin on command. suffice to say Mistress had some fun this morning!
as usual Mistress was teasing me, rubbing Her fingers over my head, basically getting me into the zone, then bam... She uttered those immortal words and i was under. i cant remember what She said to me while i was entranced, however She has explained that She had placed a couple of deepeners on me, to make me relax completely, and also implanted the new trigger, to turn me into Her personal mannequin, to do with as She pleases.
so onto the acid test. Mistress brought me out of my trance, and after a couple of minutes teasing and "will i won't i" She said the trigger words. up until She brought me out of it, i really have no memory of what happened apart from a couple of vivid flashbacks of me doing "i'm a little teapot". from what Mistress has told me, She was very pleased with the speed i went under, given recent events in my life (see previous blog posts) and the way i just stood there, glazed, blank, in other words her personal mindless puppet.
i think this sounds like Mistress is having fun. total control at its finest.
fighting the fight, and for once gaining ground
slave J
Monday, 17 September 2012
what happens when....
well, the last few weeks theres been trouble brewing. yet again i cannot thank Mistress enough for Her wisdom, patience, guidance and constant reassurance after yet another, this time major panic attack.
it all started on friday, Mistress, Miss Beth and I were at Mistresses chambers, when i just had to leave the room. i ended up in a quivering blubbering heap on the floor in the kitchen, which is amazing as you couldnt even swing a cat in there. after a few minutes to let me simmer, Mistress came in, and that was it. the floodgates opened.
when i do have a panic attack, my body and mind goes into overdrive. every one of my worst fears come into my head, and i think stupid irrational things, from people not caring right up to wanting to end my life. luckily, Mistress could see straight away how bad this one was and was kneeling next to me, letting me just hold on to Her in between sobs and runny noses. i honestly cant remember what caused it or why it happened, i can only assume it was just because i've been so run down recently, and its just came to a fore.
anyway, the cure has been very simple. after everyone had left, i was lying on Mistresses Bondage table trying to gather my thoughts. Mistress laid with me, well, more on top of me, and the next thing i knew, She had put me into a trance. (as you will see from previous blog posts, She has placed many previous hypnotic suggestions, and apparently i go into a trance without any drama!) from what She told me, She removed all the unhappiness and stress and more or less commanded my subconcious to cheer up. apart from a few minor wobbles, its worked! i feel a lot brighter now, but even so, i KNOW that no matter what happens, i will have a panic attack again. its just a matter of when, and what i can do to combat it.
fighting the fight...
Slave J
it all started on friday, Mistress, Miss Beth and I were at Mistresses chambers, when i just had to leave the room. i ended up in a quivering blubbering heap on the floor in the kitchen, which is amazing as you couldnt even swing a cat in there. after a few minutes to let me simmer, Mistress came in, and that was it. the floodgates opened.
when i do have a panic attack, my body and mind goes into overdrive. every one of my worst fears come into my head, and i think stupid irrational things, from people not caring right up to wanting to end my life. luckily, Mistress could see straight away how bad this one was and was kneeling next to me, letting me just hold on to Her in between sobs and runny noses. i honestly cant remember what caused it or why it happened, i can only assume it was just because i've been so run down recently, and its just came to a fore.
anyway, the cure has been very simple. after everyone had left, i was lying on Mistresses Bondage table trying to gather my thoughts. Mistress laid with me, well, more on top of me, and the next thing i knew, She had put me into a trance. (as you will see from previous blog posts, She has placed many previous hypnotic suggestions, and apparently i go into a trance without any drama!) from what She told me, She removed all the unhappiness and stress and more or less commanded my subconcious to cheer up. apart from a few minor wobbles, its worked! i feel a lot brighter now, but even so, i KNOW that no matter what happens, i will have a panic attack again. its just a matter of when, and what i can do to combat it.
fighting the fight...
Slave J
Monday, 3 September 2012
slave camps, photography and life itself
hi everyone, well, its been ages since i blogged (yet again), but for both Mistress and I its been a hectic month. I've finally settled in with Mistress and Her family, and the pace of life is often frenetic, but enjoyable at the same time. Mistress has been busy organising Her new project, a slave camp, where both Herself and Her partner in crime Miss Beth recieve slaves for a morning or afternoon sessions of manual labour, and lots of fun, teasing, and general humiliation of slaves who come to take part. The inaugural slave camp was a roaring success, and will now be held on the last friday of every month.
on a more personal note, i've been busy myself. i have been a hobby photographer with my trusty iPhone for some time, and after sharing pictures on twitter and facebook, people told me i shoudl really try and push more into it. so, armed with my phone i took more pictures, downloaded a photo enhancing suite called.... GIMP (oh the irony!), as i refuse to fork out over £700 for flipping photoshop! and then away i went. i also joined an american website, which i've put the link below. The pictures i have on that profile are all for sale, at reasonable prices, so if you like my work then please please make a purchase of a limited edition picture. i say limited edition, because once one is bought it will be taken off the site and not used again. on saturday just past, i was surprised by a package from the postman, and it was a new digital camera, purchased as a gift by my absolutely gorgeous generous Mistress. We went out on sunday and road tested it, and i got some amazing shots, which i have posted on here.
this is the link to my profile on the photo site.
http://fineartamerica.com/profiles/11-james-smith.html
every image bought is framed, posted and handled by the website owners, so its very high quality.
personal life is going well. Mistress and i met up with Miss Beth and Her boy last week at Kage club, in which Mistress and Miss Beth bought new hitty toys and then proceeded to test them on both me and Miss Beth's boy, even at one point forming a tag team and swapping to hit each others respective slave! after that we retired into the clubs pool for a relaxing dip, and then had to leave to come home.
all in all, life is going really well at the minute. the art site is going well, my relationship with Mistress is going from strength to strength, and life is continually being nice to me for a change!
here are some of the new images from my new camera, which are now on the website.
on a more personal note, i've been busy myself. i have been a hobby photographer with my trusty iPhone for some time, and after sharing pictures on twitter and facebook, people told me i shoudl really try and push more into it. so, armed with my phone i took more pictures, downloaded a photo enhancing suite called.... GIMP (oh the irony!), as i refuse to fork out over £700 for flipping photoshop! and then away i went. i also joined an american website, which i've put the link below. The pictures i have on that profile are all for sale, at reasonable prices, so if you like my work then please please make a purchase of a limited edition picture. i say limited edition, because once one is bought it will be taken off the site and not used again. on saturday just past, i was surprised by a package from the postman, and it was a new digital camera, purchased as a gift by my absolutely gorgeous generous Mistress. We went out on sunday and road tested it, and i got some amazing shots, which i have posted on here.
this is the link to my profile on the photo site.
http://fineartamerica.com/profiles/11-james-smith.html
every image bought is framed, posted and handled by the website owners, so its very high quality.
personal life is going well. Mistress and i met up with Miss Beth and Her boy last week at Kage club, in which Mistress and Miss Beth bought new hitty toys and then proceeded to test them on both me and Miss Beth's boy, even at one point forming a tag team and swapping to hit each others respective slave! after that we retired into the clubs pool for a relaxing dip, and then had to leave to come home.
all in all, life is going really well at the minute. the art site is going well, my relationship with Mistress is going from strength to strength, and life is continually being nice to me for a change!
here are some of the new images from my new camera, which are now on the website.
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